I pray

hmm.....long time no update my blog already, every time i open my blog is reading other people blog. God,i have a lot secret want to told u. I feel unhappy recently,it has a lot thing happen on me. Especially a person that i care. I really want to know what he thinking now. If he really hate me,y he still want to find me? It was make me confusing. If he not hate me,y he still want to block me? Wat secret he was hiding behind me? Y he always like to hurt me? Is it because last two years? or 3 years(i forget) i hurt him too deep? Y he want abandon me again n again? Did he know that was not good feeling on me? God, can tell me y im still care about him? Why i always let him hurt me again n again? I dun want believe him anymore and i dun want care him anymore. God, i pray with u. I pray i can walk out his shadow. I pray.................